It's not fair for you to make me hurt this bad, especially when you don't even care as much as I do. It's not fair for you not to understand that when I'm upset you can't always get defensive and angry, that all I want is for you to hug me until the hurt goes away. I want you to comfort me and tell me everything's going to be ok. I want you to be as sleepless as me tonight. I want you to realize you're not perfect. Why can't you just listen to me without taking everything as a personal affront on you??
I just want to go to sleep. Stop haunting my mind so I can sleep. Leave me alone so I can get better! (but come back in the morning because I still want you.
I wonder if I'm ever going to be able to be in a normal relationship, one in which the other person cares about me as much as I do about them. I wonder if I'm ever going to be ok with giving my heart to someone. I wonder if I'm ever going to find someone with big enough arms to hold it and be gentle with it. Cause right now it just hurts too much.
Everyday, a new opening
a new swatch cut into the otherwise gently sparkling fabric
does it ever mend?
Or, irreparable until the seamstress finally puts down her needles.
posted by Jen @ 9:58 PM
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Jen, it's like you're reading my mind. . . and my heart. Getting hurt is the worst- the way it occupies your every bone and every thought. And ultimately, it makes it that much harder to try and love again.
I so often question if I will ever find anyone who understands me enough to love me as much as need it while also being gentle enough to care for me and protect me.
This blog is dead to me...
Jen, why do you neglect me like this? Sincerly, Your blog
Only 1 week until the year anniversary of the last post on the blog. WHY!!!!!
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