It's not fair for you to make me hurt this bad, especially when you don't even care as much as I do. It's not fair for you not to understand that when I'm upset you can't always get defensive and angry, that all I want is for you to hug me until the hurt goes away. I want you to comfort me and tell me everything's going to be ok. I want you to be as sleepless as me tonight. I want you to realize you're not perfect. Why can't you just listen to me without taking everything as a personal affront on you??

I just want to go to sleep. Stop haunting my mind so I can sleep. Leave me alone so I can get better! (but come back in the morning because I still want you.

I wonder if I'm ever going to be able to be in a normal relationship, one in which the other person cares about me as much as I do about them. I wonder if I'm ever going to be ok with giving my heart to someone. I wonder if I'm ever going to find someone with big enough arms to hold it and be gentle with it. Cause right now it just hurts too much.

Everyday, a new opening
a new swatch cut into the otherwise gently sparkling fabric
does it ever mend?
Or, irreparable until the seamstress finally puts down her needles.